Awake in the Spirit

You cannot drag the broken self across the divine chasm. It’s impossible. Somehow we don’t recognise that that self is dead, and we fight its own internal battles from the redeemed, free, and resurrected self. I somehow think it’s now my duty to save this broken self, instead of spending time in the only self that is really alive.

The dead self keeps pulling me with its thoughts, feelings of the past, and inclinations. Those are stuck patterns in my body, deceiving me, making me believe that self is alive and that I have to fight its origin or battles.

Sometimes though, those “battles” get a breakthrough, and I mistakenly think that it’s because I somehow got a victory — a release, inner peace, breakthrough, etc. — this is a trap. The victory came by grace first in the spirit, then the body received it. This does not always happen, and it’s not the goal of the spiritual life to liberate the body, or flesh. The goal, as it were in this context, is to liberate oneself from identification with the broken self, even if that broken self keeps yelling for attention.

I’m not saying ignore, push away, resist, or do not acknowledge the struggles of the body. I’m saying that you can freely allow it all, knowing that its manifestations and struggles are not you, and not from your true identity. Doing this liberates me into the spirit and allows the struggles of the body, often resulting in its freedom. Bear in mind again that this body will die… it has to, to make way for the new body, and be reminded that the fight has already been won, whether its manifestations are present in your body or not.